notes to self

Mom called at 0630. Really a good morning Jogja call. She knew that Jogja is 2 hours behind but she keep doing that... She told me that I shall call my grandma (My mom's auntie, she's the only grandma now) and do some other things (which are confidential)... So I called... And her daughter (aka my auntie) answered it. Long time dont see them. Last time is like when I was 14. Dont get me wrong... Today I am still 18. More less, I feel so :) Nah... I am having fun being a 20 something boy... Oh, she told me that today is grandma's birthday :) Wish her all the best...

What have I done so far? In this life... Not much :) Is it a short life, mine? Actually doesn't matter. A short one gives one a chance to be like a James Dean or Kurt Cobain. A long one, well... gives a chance to see whether you're still hip next decade.. or not. Invent a strong bad side, whilst the good one ain't really dead. Balance? Nope.

Let me share mine... Confession : I still own my 3G iPod (with touchwhell), which amazingly is the oldest gadget ever been with me. Oh it's an old fashion one, you won't see it on Apple 's. I am longing for a new mp3 player, smaller one! Mobiblu 's a great choice but damn, I didnt win the auction @ T3 . Anyway, changing my equipments now... To go, I'll take my Razr Blk along, left Treo at home. For quite long trip, PSP would be a great toy for games, movies, songs, even wi-fi ready ;) Let iPod has some rest (you know, my earphone's off too! damn.)

Gee... Couldn't stand anyone. This is wrong but... I am the best in managing things. You'll be so lucky if you happen to hire me as an assistant . Oh, not to mention how wealthy you are... Assistant who can assassinate? Spell the numbers...

Just back home. The exams ok... Not so bad though I know I should be more careful. Now you have the idea whats my score... As usual, I always be nice and help one who ask me how to get this, what to do so the answer is that... Such things. And they memorize it quickly! [a matter of style that i dont see i am teaching in front of class in my future. i like it more when i rule] My problem is... whenever I am in the room... Have to write down all my answers for those questions... Something weird happens to my stomach. And I forgot... No, I become less careful and trapped. I answer uncorrectly. Thats for questions with some maths and logic. The stomach things been happening since I was in junior high. It was a feeling of great eagerness which lead to the mistakes. Cocky and anxiety at the same time. Know can and want to do it then do it wrong. I was born with all the worries... And I know that I keep worrying all the stupid things. [thats bad, right? i will totally look older if i haven...

Finally.... Got my powerbook back. Funny enough, I miss this stupid thing so much. So happy. Oh first time to do after unpacked, turned it on. And *bang*... I forgot the password. Tried heaps of word that I use a lot. But still couldnt get in. At last could reset the password by input the master password. Wuihh... Who needs to learn Management accounting for the exam tomorrow? I need time to be with my lovely powerbook! *use your term, wanna touchie-touchie* [post by email right away to let you know that I am a bit high now...]

I have problems with my nerves below my left eye. They keep make my eye feels like blinking... It's been 3 days now. Tomorrow I will call mom and ask her if it still bother me. But most probably she'll say that it's a sign that I may... either lose (someone) or get (something). Of course it would be nice not to lose someone, which also mean get something [ehm, like a new game ?]. Better ask a doctor... Or else, go shop.